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Thursday, May 08, 2003

-_- Im seriously pissed off right now... I really still DONT FEEL GOOD.. I couldn't sleep at all last night because my stomach hurt so bad, so I think today my dad is going to take me to the doctors.. I'm mad that I can't GET AHOLD OF THE GUIDANCE OFFICE, to ASK them to get my school work for me... AND IM MAD THAT I MISSED ANOTHER DAY OF SCHOOL... (Mel, I KNOW I MISS TOO MUCH SCHOOL, BUT I SERIOUSLY FEEL LIKE SHIT, OKAY? I TOLD YOU YESTERDAY THAT I DONT WANT TO MISS ANYMORE SCHOOL, AND I MEAN IT!!!!!!!!! BUT IM NOT GOING TO COME TO SCHOOL AFTER I'VE BEEN UP ALL NIGHT WITH MY STOMACH KILLING ME..ESPECIALLY WHEN IT MAKES ME EVEN MORE PISSY THEN I ALLREADY AM) I AM going to school tomorrow, because my stomach does feel alot better then it did last night and this morning....

UGH, and wtf is happening with shannon and jon? HER MOM IS GOING TO SUE HIM? HE's gonna get kicked out? I'm so confused...But I really think that shannon's mom needs a wake up call, right up the ass.... This is just psycho....How can her mom sue jon? "Like, OMG, He like..TALKED TO HER...And he like..WROTE NOTES..and he's a whole 2 years OLDER than her.." I really don't see anything ILLEGAL going on there.. -_- Talk about Evil Shannon Nazi mom's... -_-

:( I feel like shit with the fact I missed ANOTHER Day of school...But I do have those 4 detentions coming up.. :/ I can make up my work then...Oh..joy..

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 12:28 PM

MeDiCaTiOn~Garbage

I don't need an education,
I learnt all I need from you.
They've got me on some medication,
My point of balance was askew.
It keeps my temperature from rising,
My blood is pumping trough my veins.

Somebody get me out of here,
I'm tearing at myself.
Nobody gives a damn about me or anybody else.

I wear myself out in the morning,
You’re asleep when I get home.
Please don't call me self defending,
You know it cuts me to the bone.
And it's really not surprising,
I hold a force I can't contain.

Somebody get me out of here,
I'm tearing at myself.
Nobody gives a damn about me or anybody else.

And still you call me co-dependent,
Somehow you lay the blame on me.
And still you call me co-dependent,
Somehow you lay the blame on me.

Somebody get me out of here,
I'm tearing at myself.
I've got to make a point these days,
To extricate myself.
Somebody get me out of here,
I'm tearing at myself.
Nobody gives a damn about me or anybody else.

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 12:45 AM

Th3 Kr1sP: pms should burn and rott in hell :-(
TeleKevin: I can't say I know anythinga bout it but I believe girls that it's really awful just as I expect them to believe me that getting hit in the junk is awful respectively

Hahaha...

Blah..Today wasn't a good day :( ..I was really sick today..I feel alot better now..my stomach is a little off still.. but alot better than this morning...I was up all night, like sweating ( I think I had a fever)..And then really early this morning I ended up getting sick...
Even though I don't WANT to be in school.. I still WANT TO GO..because I know that I HAVE to... ugh!!!! why couldnt I have gotten sick tomorrow...I would be able to miss gymmmm....I hate gym with a fucking passion -_- ..it should fucking die...running around on tracks like little mice in mazes...jumping over poles, like we're dogs or something...as kevin would say "UNACCEPTABLE".. GRRRARRR!!!!!

So, I wouldn't be suprised if anyone even reads this anymore....I don't really have much to say, because my life really isnt THAT exciting....so if you do read this...I'm sorry :P

Sometimes I really wonder what the purpose of life is....I mean..God things change so much so fast..We all go through so much shit in our lives..But for WHAT? Seriously..For what..We'll always continue to live life misunderstood, and misunderstanding.... it's all just...so tiring.... the main goal of our life is one of two options...to make as much money as possible in our lifetime...Or to be Satisfied and happy with our lives.....ha, that doesn't even happen anymore unless you got a good amount of money....Sometimes I just feel like im wasting my time on the things I don't want to do, when I could be really living...Im so tied down by everything....That I don't even have time to live...Teenagers and kids are like little robots programmed to listen and follow whatever their authority tells them to...and then its our turn to program that same information into our kids...What a life.. :o

yeah, at this moment in time.. I really don't know...

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 12:05 AM

Tuesday, May 06, 2003

**Never miss someone from your past, there's a reason they didn't make it into your future**

^ From Burr's pro..True on SOME EXTENT..like when it comes to the assholes that have fucked you over in your life...^

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 9:57 AM

Monday, May 05, 2003

"Champagne Supernova"~OaSiS

How many special people change
How many lives are living strange
Where were you while we were getting high?

Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?

Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova in the sky

Wake up the dawn and ask her why
A dreamer dreams she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye

Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?

Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the land slide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova

Coz people believe that they're
Gonna get away for the summer
But you and I, we live and die
The world's still spinning around
We don't know why
Why why why why

How many special people change
How many lives are living strange
Where were you while we were getting high?

Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?

Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova

Coz people believe that they're
Gonna get away for the summer
But you and I, we live and die
The world's still spinning around
We don't know why
Why why why why

How many special people change
How many lives are living strange
Where were you while we were getting high?

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 8:25 PM

Ever feel so crazy..

That iyou even scare yourself?

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 12:34 AM

Sunday, May 04, 2003

UGH!! #@$#@!#$%%$^@!#!@ I NEED A FUCKING CHANGE IN MY FUCKING LIFE..

Like seriously..something about me and my life has to change..I have the sudden urge to chop all my hair off, like right this second..and dye it..and I have the urge to get a tan, (which i hardly ever do, because i have really fucking fair skin, and i've taken a liking to it and it's difference)..And i just need something, somewhere, in SOME aspect of my life to change...

wooooo..

I mean..things around here are odd and different enough with how my dad is acting..I mean, my dad is NOT acting like my dad at all..and it's kind-of scaring me......ALOT...I don't think he was even this bad when Jared died...Maybe he was, and I didn't realize because I was mourning too..But he's a totally different person right now...all depressed and sensitive towards everything...Things he would never used to do, he does now.. like little things..Like leaving lights on..and...I don't know..HE DOESNT EAT EITHER...I bet he's lost like 5 pounds just within the last week, if not MORE...I just kind-of blurted at him tonight.."THATS why you need therepy dad"..after he said he cant even stand being in the house alone, if i'm not here....

Okay enough of my dad...I saw my aunt today..I ALWAYS get picked on when im at my moms..about something, anything.. -_- ... My aunt, first thing she says when I saw her.. "you should really dye your hair blonde...it would fit you so much better...You know, with all those moments you have and everything.." @!##@%$# I know they're only picking.. but sometimes they can go over board....Like if your not the perfect athlete, with perfect grades, and perfect beauty...You need to be ridiculed or something.. I don't know..all of Fran's kids, and grandkids are all super-athletic, popular, and like goody-goodies......It just bothers me sometimes..I think they're half the reason I started to dye my hair black, and get peircings....If I get one more.. "you shouldn't put so much black dye in your hair.." im going to dye it fucking bright bright BRIGHT red, and then see how they like it.. -_-

yeah...OKay...

I really don't want to go to school tomorrow..
I really NEVER want to go to school...
But this week, I have to ..Like I have detention tuesday AND thursday...and wednsday, its AIS early dissmissal, and I have to stay after for Stangle..So thats 3 days of staying after in a row..I just have to stop missing so much fucking work..It's catching up to me..and making me feel like more shit then I should have to...And then I get in trouble and earn myself 4 nifty detentions..HEY, its better then ISS..or..IS it.. o_O ...yeah...Half of my problems..okay, mainly ALL of my problems are caused by myself and my laziness..BUT HEY, at least I realize it....

ugh..I feel so bad tonight..I've been pissing people off right and left..Hurting them...including pissing myself off..How can one person be capable of so much catastrophe?
Rachel- I love you hun, you know I do..and im sorry-Same to you Jordan.... I was thinking before I said things.. IM SORRY...

Okay..Im done for right now...Enjoy .. -_-

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 11:38 PM

"Rescue Me"~Unwritten Law

Shut down
Fallin over once again
Dropped out
Hand extended for a friend
Looked up
And there's you lookin in
And who cares
Cause no ones lookin anyway
Impaired
My vision lost to yesterday
And that's fine
Don't mind feelin that way
Just don't let me lie here by my self

Let’s go
I know I'm faded
Drop outta sight
Tonight
Just stay with me, I don't wanna go home
Drop outta sight
Tonight
Just rescue me
I don't wanna go

Rewind and take me back to start again
Ducked out cause paranoia's settin in
But I'm with you until the end
One ride
We'll drive around the parkin lot
No pride
Cause I don't seem to care a lot
No cash
This change is all I got
Just don't let me ride here by myself now

Let’s go
I know I'm faded
Drop outta sight
Tonight
Just stay with me, I don't wanna go home
All right
Tonight
Just rescue me, I don't wanna go
So stand still
One last thrill
Just stay with me and we'll never go home
Drop outta sight
Tonight
Just rescue me and we'll never go home
Yeah we'll never go home Yeah
I don't wanna go
One more ride
One time once again
Just climb in
I'm still climbing yeah
One more ride
One time once again
Just climb in
I'm still climbing

Drop outta sight
Tonight
Just stay with me, I don't wanna go home
All right
Tonight
Just rescue me, I don't wanna go
So set still
One last thrill
Just stay with me and we'll never go home
Drop outta sight
Tonight
So rescue me and we'll never go home

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 5:33 PM

Kelly Osbourne~Come dig me out

They wanted me
To be the dream
But my mood went south
And I'm stuck on the couch in bad jeans
And the couch sucks me down to the floor
And the floor sucks me down to the earth
And I'm covered and buried before
My heart had a chance to start working

Hey, It's heavy underground
I'm screaming for attention
So come dig me out

And I say
Hey somebody can you hear me now
'Cause my world is caving in
So come dig me out

It's rainning again
And who've guessed
No one's come along to tell me that I'm a mess
And the bed sucks me down through the floor
And the floor sucks me down through the earth
And I'm covered and buried before
My head had a chance to stop hurting

Hey, It's heavy underground
I'm screaming for attention
So come dig me out

And I say
Hey somebody can you hear me now
'Cause my world is caving in
So come dig me out

I never thought I could fall ten feet under
I always thought someone would remember
To look for me
Before I reach the end

Hey somebody can you hear me now
'Cause my world is caving in
So come dig me out

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 3:02 PM