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Saturday, March 22, 2003

Pervert

What's your sexual appeal?
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posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 6:05 AM

you're mod!

How can I label you?
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posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 5:51 AM

You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p

What kind of kiss are you?
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posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 5:41 AM

pierce

What's YOUR sexual fetish?
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posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 5:35 AM

alright...This morning sucked ass...I woke up with a wicked stomach ache, but I really need to go to school, so i sucked it up, took a warm bubbily bath..and went in a lil late....ahh...hmm..I went to get my permit today..and well, yeah I passed! :D I was all scared I'd fail..But I didnt..They had alot of BAC questions.. I skipped that section in the book :-X but I still passed! w000.. I came home and took a nap..Kelley called and woke me up @ 7..I need to ask my dad for money and permission to go to boston for my spring vacation..I really want to go, and kel wants me to come up...I really need to get my ass moving though =O..
Ahh melody..said its almost definite she's moving..Like..She said it looks like a REALLY good chance..I mean i've known this.. but i just didnt want to think about it.. and tonight I've been thinking about how much things would change and how much I'd miss her! :(
Ahh..she's my best friend, well one of them...but right now she IS my closest friend..and things would be so boring and colorless without her...Im like crying just cuz..yeah... :( ..Everytime something good happens to me, it can't just STAY That way.. things always have to go to hell...ALWAYS...Im just scared of losing what I allready have with mel... It sucks to lose friends...especially ones so close...and Damn s-ve is gonna suck w/o her!! :( :( Ima go steal her and make her live in my closet!!!!!

well..okay..thats about all for now.. I think im gonna post something more deepishly-interesting a little later..but my fattening ramen is almost ready..so toodles!

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 12:26 AM

Thursday, March 20, 2003

Ahh yes joyfull school, theres nothing on earth quite like it ;-)...Ahh well when I woke up this morning I was in a REALLY pissy mood.. Like a "grr dont talk to me or I'll kill you and then cry type of mood.." Why do people always have to bug me in the morning...calling me and buggin me to see if im up.. well, if I answer the phone...Does that mean im SLEEPING still? Hrmm..My friends like mel and anne have me thinking about war alot today... I mean, not JUST because of the fact that, uh we're in one right now but the fact that it really does affect so many people... Like...and it shows just how much we've grown up compared to when we were little...I wouldnt have been able to understand the meaning of war when i was little, I wouldn't have even cared... But now when I can get into discussions with it with my friends, and actually have it MEAN something....I don't know.. It's amazing how our minds and bodies grow throughout our years...How much we're able to comprehend.. I just hate the fact that people have to die in order to gain..whatever it is we're trying to gain..Taking other people's lives for our safety.. I don't know..wow im really confused and discombobulated right now...I can't wait to go home..To sleep..to eat...To well..yeah sleep some more.. *drools*.. .And this is boring.. .so im gonna go now....English is next..w00t.. can u feel the excitment?

War
What is it good for
Absolutely nothing
War
What is it good for
Absolutely nothing
War is something that I despise
For it means destruction of innocent lives
For it means tears in thousands of mothers' eyes
When their sons go out to fight to give their lives
War
What is it good for
Absolutely nothing
Say it again
War
What is it good for
Absolutely nothing
War
It's nothing but a heartbreaker
War
Friend only to the undertaker
War is the enemy of all mankind
The thought of war blows my mind
Handed down from generation to generation
Induction destruction
Who wants to die
War
What is it good for
Absolutely nothing
Say it again
War
What is it good for
Absolutely nothing
War has shattered many young men's dreams
Made them disabled bitter and meanLife is too precious to be fighting wars
each day
War can't give life it can only take it away
War
It's nothing but a heartbreaker
War
Friend only to the undertaker
Peace love and understanding
There must be some place for these things today
They say we must fight to keep our freedom
But Lord there's gotta be a better way
That's better than
War
War
What is it good for
Absolutely nothing
Say it again
War
What is it good for
Absolutely nothing

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 1:44 PM

Wednesday, March 19, 2003

Tonight is just so shitty... Im so exhausted and I just don't want to deal with ANYTHING ANYMORE!! >_< I really..JUST DONT....Im sick of s-ve, and this house..and this computer, and these clothes! im sick of the SAME HORRIBLE-MISERABLE ROUTINE over and over and over again....Im sick of all this talk about war, I'm sick of being sick, and im sick of being tired......yeah...im not trusting anyone with anything again....Once I tell someone something, it comes back to me twisted up beyond belief... >_< fuck you all for twisting my words and throughts, and SAYING I SAID THINGS THAT I DIDNT SAY!!!! Im so learning my lesson....Im giving up on relationships..I mean, not giving up..But im not gonna look for any.. I don't want a relationship right now..and if one is ment to happen, then I guess it's just going to have to happen....It's just so pathetic to sit and be all sad because he doesnt like me, or because I'm not with him, or that guy, or even him..or because he's an asshole, and that guy is a dumbass, and then that other guy is a loser... you know? It really just doesn't matter anymore....God..It really JUST DOES NOT MATTER!!!! aidbauiduaudaadnuahihjdfgn!!!! I just want to scream out of frustration of EVERYTHING right now... Im sad that melody's chances of moving are..good...:( Im pissed that my ears are retarded and don't like to work normally...I'm pissed that im stupid, and blah blah blah..
Most of all im pissed that war has started... its fucking sad.. people are gonna die..people are dying..and it's gonna be cuz of us....and saddam..I mean, YES he does need to be stopped..but why @ the price of even MORE innocent lives? :(

TeleKevin: Bush is dumb
aEsThEtiConSPrCY: yes
aEsThEtiConSPrCY: big eared MONKEY
TeleKevin: I dunno
TeleKevin: I've heard monkeys have brain wave patterns
TeleKevin: I'm not seeing that in him :-(

"You can't stop hate with hate...the only way to stop hate is with love..."
yeah, okay so that was REALLY cliche, but its true... although....I dont fucking know.. I dont like the idea of war..but i guess we have to do what we hafta do...it's not like my voice really matters...

ugh..Today i went to my pre-op..it took the damned nurses 3 times of poking at me and moving needles around in my veins before they got blood..and now i have a bruise.. >.< needless to say i was ANNOYED...And now i find out that if my tissue doesn't close the holes naturally like they should... (cuz they didnt last time) there is a more extensive surgery where they take tissue from behind my ear, and inplant it inside of my ear........ow...i mean, paper patches, and tube REMOVAL hurts enough...adnisahduahdah and if THAT doesn't work...Permanate tubes....

yeah..im going to stop bitching now cuz i know there are like 27487632473264712183719321837 + lives out there that have it so much worse then me... I'm lucky to even be able to try to fix my stupid-ears...aadadahdughausg....night

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 11:22 PM

Tuesday, March 18, 2003

Well its like 9:30 and im just waiting for my ride to come.. I woke up with a huge head ache, and im exhausted.. so I got to sleep in a little bit... >_< I really am exhausted... God I don't want to go to school..but I know..I have to...>_< adiadnsahdadnakshd yeah life just sucks...oh, and if u have a problem with me thinking LIFE FUCKING SUCKS..Then go shove it up your ass...Im sick of people reading this and saying "omg, she's so depressed, and she wants to bring everyone down with her...omg, she's just full of negativity" well..don't read this if u don't want to endure my fucking NEGATIVITY....Oh, I am so sick of stupid people... but yeah..im leaving now.. not much to say.. Just thought i'd rant a lil for the sake of boredom...

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 9:28 AM

Monday, March 17, 2003

okay..blogger for a while was being soo gay.. But i think its okay now...well yesterday.. I actually talked to gary on the phone =o Like wow...I woke up, and came downstairs and my mom was talking to him on the phone, cuz he needed help with something.. then before they hung up, he asked to talk to me...and it was actually HUMANE conversation... LoL Mike also called me last night.. yesterday was like old ex/b/f night where they just kinda pop up outta no where (har har)...talking to mike was weird..just cuz i dont know him that well anymore...And I hold grudges.. *cough* forever...Oh wells..I guess I'll get over it sooner or later.. Im dead tired today.. I stayed up till 3:30-4 last night/this morning.. LoL but today is such a niiiice day!! :D its so great!!! so im gonna go out somehow.....toodles! ;)

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 4:02 PM

(Written Saturday)-
Wow im on my mommies computer..and its just so fucking fast!! :D my computer is just a hunk of slow metal.. So its gonna get fixed this weekend.. I havnt posted in a while BECAUSE of my shitty computer... but lets see...I havnt posted in here for a while..but uhm..jordan came home from europe...we had school off friday..and thursday I did get to see kel.. She brought me home early from school, and then me,kel, jenni, ames,mike and mark all went bowling in ithaca..it was the shiznit! and last night i went to dinner and movie with chris.. .w00t...And today I didnt do anything..just kinda slept.. Im doing alot better in my life in many senses...and then theres those times when im just like "FUCKIGN DAMMIT SCREW EVERYTHING!" but the whole darrin situation is okay..its almost as though...i dont know.. maybe i didnt ever love him..Maybe it was just infatuation..Cuz the first 2 weeks were hell..and now im okay..he still pisses me off and makes me mad..and hurts me just of the fact he's a shit head.. but Im looking for other guys now..and movin on.. .cuz I dont know.. thats all i can do... im not gonna sit here and die over him.. Like i said.. i've got more important things to worry about.. If things are gonna happen, they'll happen in their own time!!
kay..well..yeah..here be some songs that im relating to at the moment..
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"Addicted"

I heard you're doing okay
But I want you to know
I'm a dick
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy but you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
BUt I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
I'm still a dick
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
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"You Don't Mean Anything"

Maybe I'm just not good enough for you
And maybe I just don't wanna be like you

And maybe I just don't wanna know
How low you're ready to go
I'm not gonna change
You can't make me

You don't mean anything to me
You're what I never want to be

Tell me does it feel good to be like you
Tell me why should I waste my time with you

'Cuz maybe you always bring me down
I'm sick of being pushed around
I'm not gonna change
You can't make me

I know you think you know me
You don't know anything
I know you want to help me
I don't need anything
Don't tell me where to go
I don't need you to know
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"Lovesick"

I guess I should be glad for you
But The thought of you just makes me sick
It's been two weeks and that's too quick
I can't say that I'm doin' fine
Cuz I'm bout to lose my mind
And I don't know what I'll do so

You're sad for me too bad for you
That I'm so lonely and confused
I've gotta take it out on you
Cuz you left me for some chick
Now I'm lovesick baby

Saw myself on Rikki Lake
Overweight and full of hate
Some asshole left me in distress
I used to look down on all that mess
Seems like everything just changed
Once I gave my love to you you went away
Since you are the one to blame
You better figure out how to get it back baby

Before I met you I didn't think
That you'd ever do a thing
To take away my independence baby
Before I met you I was straight
Now I'm bout to go insane
I saw you and I think about you baby

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 3:58 PM