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Friday, January 24, 2003

What a day....So right now i'm winding down by drinking mountain dew and eating cheetos.. yeah, I have such a GREAT diet.. hmmm.. well, I left school early today because my stomach hurt so bad, I felt like crying...So I came home, and indeed I did get to sleep in my nice warm bed...I didn't think I was going to be able to go to Darrins tonight, But I was wrong. I woke up at about 5:00 and He told me that His mom actually said yes to me coming over... YeY! It was great.. Even though I was a tired blob..I dont think I could have been anymore lifeless...Just one of those "BLAH" days...
I've got alot to do this weekend.. I need to go shoppin for a dress for the dance.. (DARRIN CAN COME!! woo to the HOO), study for stupid regents, GO TO MY MOMS, and clean my dads house, all in one jam packed weekend... Saying "clean dads house" isn't just like.. "okay we'll vacuum, and dust.." ooooooooh no.. It's more like.. "Filling 20 garbage bags full of junk, vacuuming, mopping, scrubbing, organizing, dusting, and etc..." This should be fun..-_-.. Considering I havn't cleaned for a couple of....*cough*months*cough*... Sure, he does dishes and laundry, and he picks up anything that might be laying on the floor.. But thats about it, my dad is a total rat pack, and hes a GUY... What can ya say.. I guess I dont care that much what the house looks like anymore considering I'll be outta here in 2 and a half years...It's his house, he's lived here for almost 53 years, and he'll live here until he dies. If he wants it to be the living quarters of a tazmanian devil, then he can have it that way...
LoL, sorry enough babbling about that...You know, some people say you only fall in head over heals-madly in love ONCE in your life...And that person is the one you should be with.. How do you know when that happens? I mean, You can love more than one guy, Or girl,(depending on prefrence) right?? But if there is only one trueeeee love...eh...I can't think right now.. anyways, I was reading this article about teens gettin married too young.. and how they say that first loves rarely ever work out...That really depresses me for some reason right now.. I guess I believe if you truelly love someone, you'll love them forever...
Im too tired to really think deep right now, I save most of that for my poetry.. So i'm just going to end this now, before I start confusing myself, and whoever reads this.. I don't think im explaining my thoughts very well at this point.. LoL..Its so much easier to talk about my day when your all fuggled up...so I guess I'll get all deep-like tomorrow... Caio ;)

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 10:52 PM

Well here I am in school... It's only 2nd period and i'm allready counting down the hours until I get to go home and sleep in my nice warm bed..I didn't get all that much sleep last night..God I really hate school...All the guys in this school are immature retards.. but then again, arent ALL OF THEM? wait, no.. I guess there are a select decent few out there like my daddy, and Darrin.. and maybe... Freddy....LoL but most of the guys are all horn-dogged 2 year olds.. Some of the guys are litterally like lil horn dogs! Theyre so horny that they'll attach themselves to you, start humping, and they wont let go...Yeah guys suck...Maybe I'll become a pro feminist when im older...Hey ma, look @ me now!! w00t..
Anyways.. Enough guy bashing I guess.. There isnt really much to ramble about right now.. its only like 9:00 in the morning, and i'm still not fully awake yet, so my brain isnt totally working...Today is yet ANOTHER emotional day for me...I don't know why.. I just sat in math class and wanted to cry...Sleep deprivation? FOOD deprivation?? Maybe it's just that dreaded PMS?! I don't know.. either way right now I wouldn't mind being locked in my dark room, under my bed covers, contemplating about how much life sucks, and NEVER thinking about the positive shit in life...In the long end ANYWAYS- the negative beats out the positive.. I mean really, We live our lives to strengthen and make our future BETTER....But how do we even know we're going to have a future?? The world could come to an end tomorrow (even though HIGHLY unlikely) You never quite know just what could happen...And all this time your held back by trying to be perfect.. getting good grades, not doing anything wrong, hardly ever having fun... Life is just so pointless sometimes.. We're like mindless zombies who walk around work and school.. doing what we "NEED" to do just to get an education, make alot of money, and live a "GOOD" life..It's like we can't do what we want.. We always have to please others.. I mean, don't get me wrong here! I know that we need money to live... Thats a given.. But why do we have to take all of these classes that we DONT EVEN EXCEL IN... eh, I'm not going to get into that.. Thinking so much in the morning starts to make my brain hurt...I allready know what's in store for me for this day.... Pens, paper, teachers, classmates, alot of WORDS and terms I dont know...The occasional humorous joke between my friends and I.. (Like lunch table convorsations..) and thats.... about it... If I don't see Darrin tonight, I probably wont do anything tonight...Next week is a big week in school I guess... :-/ EHH! Someone shoot me now please! We have stupid regents to take next week and not to mention its the end of the marking period.... and blah blah blah blah!
Allright my brain has had enough.. I'm gonna cut this now... I don't have anything better to do but sit here and talk to this computer...But Whatever.. maybe I'll babble some more later....Peaaace! :D

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 9:21 AM

Hmmm...Well I was looking @ melsody's blog, and decided to start mine back up again...I love writting anyways, and I can't write poetry ALL the time... Well tonight I came home from school and slept, then talked to Darrin on the phone for like all night, OF COURSE...
Today in school I almost started crying, Just because a teacher yelled at me for no reason... I don't normally cry that easily, but It was just one of those frustrated-stressed out-FUCK SCHOOL-type of days.. speaking of the lovely brick building full of ignorant snot nosed hicks, and pushy-smelly coffee breath teachers- I AM SO SICK OF SCHOOL!!! Ahh!! I am so frustrated with it, but that would be my fault because I'm a lazy ass and I havn't been doing my work.. I guess I really need to get my ass in gear...Great time to finally realize that, considering the marking period ends NEXT FRIDAY!! *cries* Yeah yeah, as heather told me I have that funny plague that I get like every other day, so I just CANT possibly make it to school.. That would be a long story.. BUT- easily said.. I hate school more than your normal teenager-schoolage thing, and i've turned into a non-caring lazy bum...w00t...
AHH Norm.. he is a riot...I feel bad for have treated him so bad before, when I know he's a cool person.. Sometimes he's the only other person I think who knows just how insane I feel sometimes... he's so sickly demented... GOD I LOVE IT!!! He is one of a kind!! :D
Rachel and I seem to have been gettin closer lately, which is good, i've missed my hottcakes.. ;-) AND she dyed her hair a kick ass blonde...She's awsome! As for My other friends.. Katie wrote this poem, that I saw on allpoetry.com .. And I read it in the library today at lunch time.. I almost started crying.. (yeah, shut up.. today was an emotional day) She was sittin right behind me with Rachel too.. We're allpoetry nerds...We should Just start yearly allpoetry.com conventions.. :D
Ahh mels..I didnt get to talk to her much today.. :( Shes awsome! and she printed out my *PAPER DELIGHTS* ;) Gotta love her...
Okay, sorry.. Not that you really care about my friends and etc, But im not forcing you to read this ;).. Im just not all deep and theoretical right now.. soooo I'm just talking about my day and stuffs...
OOOOOH speaking of.. its so DAMN COLD HERE!!!! I HATE NY!! HATE IT! HATE IT! HATE IT!!! Im gonna move to CA, or FL, or ANYWHERE but NY when im older.. I went to take a bath tonight, and our hot water was frozen.. our pipes have been frozen out in the kitchen for a WHILE..the water runs..MOST of the time, but it wont drain, I dont know what my dad does cuz of that...He's like superman, He finds ways to deal with things like dipping the water out of the sink, to put FRESH water in it, to do dishes.. o_O..And he's soooo patient with alot of things.. I love him, even tho he can be a poop-head sometimes...hmm okay, so I'm kind of tired, and instead of doing hw, i chose to do this..thats my lazyness procrastination for ya ;D.. uh huh.. I'm gonna wrap this up now... Toodles!!!

posted by =*=ThE*KRisP=*= at 12:18 AM